Monthly Archives: January 2010

Oh, you of little faith…

I have been trying to catch up with my church’s ‘Bible in a year’ plan this week. I am making myself become more disciplined in reading the word to start off my day and, man! What a difference it makes! God’s word is powerful. And when you start off your day by reading about that power and letting God touch your spirit with His words…its amazing how great your day can be when you have your heart in the right place.

Yesterday I was reading through Matthew and God really showed me a lot about faith. My faith, the faith of His people, and the kind of faith that He wants us to have.

In Matthew 8 when Jesus is with the centurion, the centurion shows so much faith. He tells Jesus that he doesn’t feel worthy to have him come and heal his paralyzed servant, but he knows with all his heart that if Jesus says the word, his servant will be healed. He doesn’t need to see Jesus lay hands on his servant to prove his might and strength….he knows Jesus is so powerful that all it takes is a word from Him. Jesus tells him, “I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith…Go! It will be done just as you believed it would”

Man!! I was so convicted that I need to have more faith. Of course, I pray and know that God is capable of anything….but my heart isn’t always in it as much as it should be. I’ll pray and continue to worry. I’ll pray and doubt. And that isn’t what God wants from me.

Another example is from Matthew 8 as well. When Jesus and his disciples are in the boat and a storm comes while Jesus is sleeping through it. Meanwhile, the disciples are freaking out screaming and they wake up Jesus saying, “Lord! save us! We’re going to drown!” What does Jesus do? He turns over from his sleep and gently says, ” You of little faith, why are you so afraid?”

I feel like that’s my life. I have all of these “storms” of fear, anxiety, doubt, and anger churning in my heart and I’m screaming out “Jesus do something about this!!”  When the whole time, I’m sure Jesus is saying the same thing to me….”You of little faith, why are you so afraid?…I’ve got this covered. You’re mine….calm down!”

I also love the examples in Matthew 9. The first, is the woman who was hemorrhaging for twelve years. She knew that if she just touched Jesus cloak, she would be healed. Jesus heard her thoughts, and turned to her to say “Take heart, daughter…your faith has healed you”.  What faith!! She didn’t need to see it to believe it. She had heard about Jesus and the amazing things He had done. And she knew that if her fingers could just brush his cloak that she would stop bleeding.

In Matthew 9:27-31, there is a blind man who asks Jesus for mercy and healing. Jesus simply asks him, “Do you believe that I am able to do this?” He replies with a yes and Jesus says, ” According to your faith will it be done to you”.

Faith is so powerful, people. I think that many times we can get caught up in worry, doubt, or the need to “see it to believe it”. And that isn’t fully trusting God. I challenge myself  (and all of you if you’re up for it) to have more mountain- moving faith. I KNOW that God is capable of huge things 🙂


Calm My Anxious Heart

Calm My Anxious Heart is a book that speaks to my heart. My friend and mentor Rachael was kind enough to let me borrow it and today I couldn’t put it down! I just have to share what I have learned from this book so far. As I go, I will definitely share what else I learn from this book. If anyone is interested in picking it up at a bookstore, the author is Linda Dillow.

So here is what I have LOVED so far:

-The whole book seems to be sort of centered around, firstly, the fact that God calls us to be content and not to worry about anything. And secondly, it is centered around the example of Paul’s contentment displayed in Philippians,

-Phil 4:11-13  “I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength”

– Prescription for contentment:

  • Never allow yourself to complain about anything– not even the weather
  • Never picture yourself in any other circumstances or someplace else
  • Never compare your lot with another’s
  • Never allow yourself to wish this or that had been otherwise
  • Never dwell on tomorrow- remember that tomorrow is God’s, not ours.

– The Lord has assigned us all our portion. (Psalm 16:5) God is in control of our lives, so why worry? If I am walking with Him, listening to Him, reading His word, and giving Him room to speak in my life…I won’t be able to steer myself in the wrong direction.

– To be content in all situations, means being able to realize all of the blessings that you DO have…not the ones you WANT or feel you DESERVE.

– Philippians 4:6 says “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” That is OUR part in the journey to contentment….the rest of the verse is God’s part in 4:7, ” And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ” . God’s promise is that if we come to Him in prayer with our requests and with thanksgiving, He will give us peace.

– When confronted with negative circumstances, we all have a choice. Will we pray about it or will we worry about it?

– Be thankful, pray specifically, dwell on the positive, and give anxieties to God.

– God is our Blessed Controller. Ultimately, our lives are in His hands if we allow it. Why worry?

– Our thought life determines our contentment– not our circumstances!!

And that’s all for now:) I will keep you posted!!

On a side note, if you are looking for a good read and have already read this book. Anything by Elisabeth Elliot is absolutely God-filled and amazing. I admire that woman so much!

“Testify Tuesday”- Bethel vs. UNF

So, I just re-read my last post. And I apologize for all of the typos in there! Crazy Mac computers get me confused and there is no spell check! Anyways…needless to say I am glad to be back on my own (beat-up) laptop. So what if the battery only works when plugged in? It’s my baby:) And I’m ready to blog away….

So, in Testify Tuesday fashion, I will write about how AMAZING God is yet again 🙂 My mind is blown away time after time as I look back on my life and realize the times where God was working…when I had no idea what He was doing until now when I looked back into my past.

So I will tell you all the amazing story..

As a senior in high school, I had made up my mind that I wanted to go to a private Christian College. I had slipped away from God during junior and senior and I felt like maybe if I completely surrounded myself with God, then I couldn’t mess my life up anymore! (what a concept…) So anyways, I had made my decision to move up to Minnesota and go to Bethel University. I was accepted, registered, signed up for my major..everything.

But for some reason, one day out of the blue I went up to my mom and told her that I wanted to stay in Florida. So I went to an orientation and registered for classes at UNF (I had gotten accepted there but didn’t really care).

So I went to UNF the fall of 2005. I made some bad choices my first year of college, but then God really laid it on my heart to start looking for a church. I found Jacksonville Christian Life….a small church family that met on campus. (At first, I just went because it was on campus and I could go in my pajamas with a hangover. But no one ever knew that, I don’t think. )

The minute I started going, I knew that God put me there. I got so close to everyone so quickly and they truly became my family.

From going to UNF (for reasons I didn’t know at the time), I got involved with an amazing campus church. God used me in ways I would never have imagined and I became a worship leader, helped build a worship team, and planted a community church! (not to mention I met my amazing HUSBAND!) God is amazing. And if I had gone to Bethel, I would never have experienced any of that!