overdue

Well, here I am. 40 weeks and TWO days pregnant. My due date came and went. Although, it isn’t a surprise since most first babies are born some time in the 41st week…so Abbie is still very healthy and on track.

What’s new with me?

– my maternity clothes are too tight now

– my appetite has decreased (accept for the occasional ice cream craving)

– Abbie is the size of a medium pumpkin (according to my pregnancy app)

– Abbie has very little room to move around now. All I really feel now is her butt rolling from one side to the other and occasionally a hand pawing at my stomach..she’s wanting out, I think hope!

We are praying I go into labor in the next couple of days. Our midwife wants us to get a biophysical profile next week if Abbie hasn’t come yet and we just can’t afford that since I don’t have maternity coverage (its $1000!).

So come out, Abbie! We want to hold you and spoil you rotten!!

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What I’ll miss about being pregnant…

Today marks me being 38 weeks pregnant- woo hoo! I felt like this day would never come but now that I look back, I feel like I just found out I was pregnant! Time really flies. As I’m sitting here, baby Abbie is having a bout of hiccups in my belly and it made me think…I’m going to miss this when I’m not pregnant! This got me thinking of all the little things I will miss about having our daughter in my belly:

1. Naps. I think this goes without saying….as soon as Abbie comes out, the sleep cycles in the Shannon household will be short and deprived for a while. I’m going to miss sitting around the house all day and being able to nap whenever I want!

2. Scapegoat. “I can’t, I’m pregnant”…man, I’m going to miss milking that phrase! Although, maybe soon I’ll be able to use, “I can’t, I have a baby” 🙂

3. Tiny kicks and hiccups. I love feeling my baby girl move around in my belly! Every time I feel her wiggle around in there, I know she is safe and healthy.

4. Free hands. Its pretty easy doing things around the house and taking care of Abbie at the same time when she’s inside of me! haha. Thank God for baby carriers/ wraps 🙂

5. Great hair days. Even though it seems this pregnancy has given me 50 gray hairs on my head (really….there’s a good patch now. yuck), I am loving the thick and shiny pregnancy hair! I’ve read that when your 3 months postpartum, A LOT of your hair falls out…but, then again, maybe some of those grays will fall out too!

6. Calories. Thanks to a pregnancy- induced higher metabolism, you can eat a couple hundred extra calories a day! (until the third trimester when you’re no longer hungry 24/7). The minute she’s born, its back to watching my caloric intake. Even though you should still have extra calories when breastfeeding, I’m going to see if my supply will stay up as I calorie- count.

7. Special treatment. I love when people insist on helping me load groceries in my car, giving me their seat, or letting me cut in lines….its so nice!

8. Having something to talk about. With certain people, its hard to find things to talk about…but it’s been nice to know that I can walk up to anyone and I already know what they are going to talk about “is she kicking?”, “how do you feel?”, “are you ready?”…there’s always a topic of conversation to go to 🙂

9. Washing baby clothes with no stains on them. There is so much excitement when you get brand new baby clothes, wash them in perfume-free detergent, fold them, and put them away. I’m sure the fabulousness of it all will soon fade once there is spit up and poop all over them. Just a guess….

10. Back rubs. My husband is the sweetest man in the world. And I hate to ask him for backrubs when he is tired (and usually don’t). But being pregnant, sometimes you just NEED to have a backrub…doesn’t matter what time it is. And he has been so wonderful about giving me a rub any time of day or night. But I won’t bother him for that after Abbie comes 😉

11. Not having to do crunches. I will miss not having to work out as intensely….but I am SO READY to get back into shape after Abbie comes!

Even though I will miss all of these things, I know that it will be the most wonderful feeling in the world to hold my precious daughter and watch her grow. Can’t wait!!


Just. For. Now.

“Just for now. The challenge you are facing is just for now. The joy you are celebrating is just for now. The tide never remains in. It recedes to return again. Inhale and give thanks for your blessing. Exhale and release your burden. They are here just for now.”

I heard this quote/ poem on the radio today and it put me into tears. It gave me such perspective and I feel like I can apply it to every single situation in my life. It opened my eyes to the blessings God has put in my life.

In regards to our financial struggles, it reminded me that those will always come and go like the tides and they won’t last forever…

In regards to my marriage, it reminded me that there is no marriage in Heaven and it is a sweet gift that God has given us to enjoy here here on earth. But it isn’t eternal….

In regards to my daughter, it reminded me that even she (this is when I began to bawl like a baby) is “just for now”. She is a precious human being that God has entrusted Justin and I with to raise here on this earth….but that isn’t eternal either….

The ONLY thing that is eternal, from everlasting to everlasting, is God and the salvation that we can have through His Son.

I am so thankful that I have God in my life and I have a real relationship with Him. He’s not just some deity who makes up all of these random rules to follow. He has purpose for the lives of His children.

Thinking about this also made me get on my hands and knees and pray that our daughter would have that relationship, too. We don’t need to be sad thinking that everything on this earth is “just for now”. We can be grateful for what we have currently and excited for what is eternal.


moving on…and looking for more

Since I’ve become pregnant, my “boss” and I have been talking about when I would leave and stop taking care of James. We’ve all seen it coming so I decided that I would stop when I am 8 months pregnant (just incase Abbie decides to come early…don’t really want to go into labor while chasing a toddler around!). We had all agreed that November would be a great time.

But something came up. James’ mom will move to a full-time nursing position and I told them I just don’t have the energy to be getting up at 5am 4 days/ week. So James will move to day care in October….which means I will only be watching him a few more times.

It is probably for the best since I’m having less and less energy these days and I can tell I’m entering the “nesting” stage- just wanting to stay home, clean, get the nursery together, wash baby clothes, etc.

Plus, James’ mom is pregnant and we plan on me watching the baby starting in May or June.  So its not a huge issue…

But I really need to find ways to make money from home. I’m not sure what to do. I’ve tried looking into focus groups, but I haven’t heard about any lately. I’ve looked into getting paid to blog…but, let’s face it, I’m not the best writer and I’m lucky if two people read this thing in a week’s time. I’ve also looking into writing transcripts from home but they all seem like scams.

I am really trying to take Titus 2 to heart…where it talks about women working from home, to be wise, and glorify God. I feel like that’s my calling right now. I need to focus all of my time and energy into my family, raising my daughter, and taking care of things at home. I just wish I got paid for doing that haha. Money is just really tight right now and I’d love to be able to take some of the load off of Justin.

I’m not sure what God has in store, but I am trusting that He will ALWAYS provide, take care of us, and show us where to go.

Until then…I guess I’ll just enjoy being a stay at home (expecting) mom!


My prayer for Abbie

I’ve been thinking and praying a lot about Abbie’s life and the kind of person I hope for her to be, the beliefs I pray I can instill in her, and the things that she will someday hold dear to her heart. I thought I’d share since so many of my loved ones read this blog..feel free to join me in praying for my daughter’s life!

 

Father,

I pray that, even now, as you are knitting Abbie together in my womb that You would be instilling a spirit of joy and peace within her. I pray that you would be instilling in her spirit a desire that longs for you from a young age. Lord, I pray that you would guard her heart and her steps. Let her always run to You in both times of happiness and also in the tough times when it is most difficult to come to You. Show Justin and I how we can teach her Your ways and be examples to her.

I pray for a life of purity. Not just physically, but in all aspects of her life. I pray for Your protection over her. Protect her from others and wrong choices..call her to a higher standard, God. A standard that glorifies You. I pray those same things for her future husband. I pray that You would be guiding her future husband’s parents wisdom as they raise a man of integrity.

Lord, thank You so much for entrusting us with Abbie. She is fearfully and wonderfully made. You chose her for us and we thank You for who she is and who she will be. I pray that You would fill her with all things that are noble, true, just, pure, lovely, of virtue, and anything praiseworthy…let her think on those things just like Your word instructs.

We thank You in advance for the gifts that you will bless her with. Please help her realize those gifts from a young age and let her always use them to glorify You name, Jesus.

Father I pray that you would fill Abbie’s life with good relationships, first with You Lord. Help her seek after Godly things.  Please bless our relationship with her as her parents. Help us show her and let her feel our unconditional love just as You show that to us. May she rise up and call us blessed.  We ask for friends for her that she would feel accepted and be influenced by good kids.

We ask that You would keep her path straight and that You would prepare and lead her way. I pray all of this in Jesus’ name…Amen.

“You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you!” Isaiah 26:3


The love of a mother

“A mother’s love is instinctual, unconditional, and forever.”- Unknown

“Of all the rights of women, the greatest is to be a mother”- Lin Yutang

I have been thinking a  lot lately about what kind of mother I desire to be. The more I’ve been thinking about this, it has really begun to sink in just how important the role of a mother is. Until a child is old enough to understand God’s love , have a relationship with Him, and be independent the mother is viewed as the protector and provider. Her opinion weighs heavily on your heart and the decisions you make. The sound of her voice and her presence brings a sense of peace to the child that no one on this earth could replace. Having her support and knowing that she would go to the ends of the earth for you makes you feel like you can do anything.

That being said, I sense this huge responsibility and calling on my life. Since I became pregnant, I have been doing a lot of self- reflection and I am trying to spend a lot of time with God praying. I want to have a really good sense of who I am, my faults, my strengths, etc so that I can use all of that to help build up Abbie into the young woman that God is calling her to be. Even now while she’s still growing in my belly.

Thinking about all of this makes me think of my own mom. She was that for me. A support who built me up and always encouraged me. Even when I messed up and was rebellious (which I was. A LOT. ) she was there guiding me and helping me along the way….always having my back. (My dad was this for me, too. But I’m just focusing on motherhood today)

I love my mom so much and I am so excited that Abbie gets to have her in her life as a nana. I’m also excited because I can continue to learn from my mother and have her support in this life- altering season of mine.

My beautiful mamma 🙂


Kansas

Last week I went to visit my mom in Kansas City. We had originally booked the plane tickets because Justin was planning on going with our church to El Salvador on a mission trip. Long story short, his work wouldn’t let him take the week off. So I had a week of vacation and Justin had a week of working late and getting more done than he normally would on his “side project” websites (I’m such a distraction lol).

It is always a great time visiting my mom. I can’t wait until the day when we live closer to each other. We bought baby clothes, looked at nursery decorations, and she even treated me to some maternity clothes and a pedicure:) Moms just know what you need more than anyone else on the planet…I love it.

I have yet to upload my pictures…but I’ll get around to it 🙂 There aren’t many great ones. I love taking pictures of my trips but it seems every time I go to Kansas I forget! Guess I’m having too much fun 🙂

It was a great time with my mom and I am hoping she will be able to come in October for the baby shower:) But I am glad to be back….the  “to-do before baby comes” list continues to grow with my belly!